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[20 Apr 2005|12:15am]

ok.. so I added most of my friends from here on my ___trick  friends list.


add me back . please. so I dont feel like an ass.


I think the only people I didnt really add are the ones who havent updated since like 2003...


if I missed you, you could tell me. or if you just dont wanna be my friend... you could tell me that too.. I promise I wont cry.

 although Im sure you'll never tell me ANYTHING  because no one goes on lj anymore. everyone is a myspace whore now.


ohhhhhhh wellllll. I guess Ill never get ANY comments  .   =(      so much for trying to keep in touch.

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add it bitch.

1 // trick please

[15 Apr 2005|05:00pm]

toooooooooo bad you arent my friend on ___trick   because i just spent long  time on picture post...


well i guess you could look at all my fancy pictures anyway, but it's not as fun if you arent on my friends list.... probably...

trick please

[11 Apr 2005|04:14pm]

pretty much.. about to make a new live journal. no idea why. Im just kinda over the name.. even though beana is pretty much my name... but thats no the point. its 4:15 so i dont have any time to put the layout together right now because i have to work... its probably gonna be the same as this one... and I probably wont delete this one, I just wont use it...


i dono.

so yeah.. add me because I'm just that cool.   or ill just add you first because that makes me even cooler.





trick please

[11 Apr 2005|03:18pm]
i sherioushly love love my new layout. but I'm hating on the random white strip on the left. i dont know what color is the right green and Im too lazy to look it up so deal with it.
maybe someday I should update?
maybe I've been too caught up in nothing.
maaaaybe I've been too caught up in trouble.
maaaaybe I dont care.
maybe I should?
I think everyone else cares too much so that leaves me no room to care.

uhh.. yeah.

love me??
1 // trick please

[16 Mar 2005|11:38pm]
"sorry i really shouldnt be talking to you, i'm acctually kinda seeing someone now."

.ouch. seriously.
5 // trick please

[15 Mar 2005|06:08pm]
i read a 537 page book yesterday. read. all of it.

it was about crank.

537 pages. was it supposed to make me not want to do terrible things to myself like she did?
2 // trick please

[14 Mar 2005|11:45am]
i do things that no one in the world knows about... and I dont know if I care to tell anyone.
trick please

[08 Mar 2005|11:10pm]
fuck layouts.
trick please

[20 Feb 2005|12:40am]
I'm glad I have no friends. I'm the shittiest friend ever. I beg you, from the bottom of my heart, dont even consider being friends with me, or rekindling any friendship we may have had in the past. yeah thanks.
4 // trick please

[18 Feb 2005|12:52am]
so basically... Ive been counting down the days to this night for about 2 months now... mmm From First to Last was seriously going to own my life.I dont play favorites... but they're definitely my favorite.... so... to make a long story short... it rains, theres traffic... and we get there 5 minutes after they went off stage. I was so bummed out. so. bummed. out. not even kidding. but matchbook did amazing of course. and the matches were pretty much lame. beating the shit out of people in the "pit" was pretty cool though. motion city.. eh... but after seeing them Ive decided to take up keyboarding for a living. and to dance around.

in other news... I wish andrew wasnt andrew. and I wish I would stop thinking about him.
honestly... who thinks about someone they've hung out with 3 times... and someone who will never text message them back... someone who only calls when he wants "something". so fucked up. but i deal with it so I shouldnt complain, right?
he's just so... right.. in my eyes. but, being just another girl, just another phone number, just another waste of time, just another nothing is what I do best. so I'll probably text message him a few more times, until he gets bored with some other beautiful girl, and eventually he'll make up some perfect excuse as to why I wasnt worth a text back, and I'll smile and feel all twitterpated like a little girl and think he acctually means it.

what a waste of life I am. I make myself laugh. I think if he ever saw this, he's move to venezuela because he'd be so afraid.

well, besides feeling sorry for myself, Ive been having the time of my life. I've dealt with more drama this year then some people experience in a life time, but Ive learned so much from all of it. and Im having so much fun, even with all the drama.

so I go to adult school full time now. yes. and I found the boy Im destined to fall in love with. he doesnt talk. or smile. or anything that has to do with emotion. He just wears his hood and keeps to himself and parks on the curb. and when he breaks up with his girlfriend, he's going to be mine.

the end.
2 // trick please

[29 Jan 2005|10:47am]
... good times... ?


uhh... sorry... ?
2 // trick please

[28 Jan 2005|12:57am]
so formal is.. today. and I dont even know about my dress yet. I hate it. but I'm not even done with it. and when I'm done, Im sure I'll hate it even more.

in other news, I lost my atm card, my sunglasses, and my pink bandanna. so if you find any of them, let me know immediately, please.

who votes I just wear my birfday suit to formal?
4 // trick please

[11 Jan 2005|08:01pm]
fuck formal. I'm too fucking fat to go anyway.
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[10 Jan 2005|08:06am]
why can't people spell? what seems to be so hard about turning "u" into "you", or "wat/wut" into "what"? or adding apostrophes? just doesn't make sense...

so Im back in school until the 26th for 2 classes... yeah, 2.

formal this year? hm, okay.

I desperately need to do my hair.. or maybe have it done... it's so gross..

fuck myspace. it's such a life ruiner. as a mean, mean, mean joke, someone decided to make me one because they thought it'd be funny. well, it's not.

this is by far the most pointless entry I've ever done...

maybe I'll post pictures of new years? ... in 10 years...

gosh, go home. no one cares.
trick please

[02 Jan 2005|02:10am]
Even if I spent 2004 listening to morrisey in my car,
I'm better off alone than I would be in your arms.
trick please

[30 Dec 2004|02:44am]
hi. i like you.
1 // trick please

[19 Nov 2004|10:40pm]


in random bits and pieces... sort of like my heart...


"...I feel like I'm wasting so much time when I'm not talking to you. I seriously just like wait for you to come online, and it just makes me happy. just thinking about it makes me happy.





if I'm your ray of sunshine, you're my everything.

friendship is just as important as love, if not more important.

you're the only one that makes me happy, not a fake emotion anymore.

...and we can stay out late and watch the stars and hold eachother and it will be really fun.

be my one to end the search because my searching is done and it has ended with you.

you are the epitome of happiness. your note was the best part of my day.

honey you, are my shinning star, dont you go away.

I will hold you so you do not fall, or we can fall together. and I will take the hit to the ground so you do not get hurt. "




so that's that. maybe I should just die now. I'd rather die then have to see your smile.

2 // trick please

[14 Nov 2004|04:30pm]
=( meechie is in the hospital and I donno why.
oh man I hope she's ok.
I love her wif my whoooole heart.
pwease be ok.
trick please

[12 Nov 2004|03:18pm]



i think it's finally time I'll be leaving that school.


why do I always fuck everything up?


when are things going to get better?

trick please

[07 Nov 2004|10:47pm]
i hate this.
5 // trick please

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